>>23846139Not OP, but I'm thinking about this every other day, but what's the alternative...
I felt like shit when looking at women for as far as I can think back, I feel like I should've become hateful towards them but I only felt miserable and I knew why. It was just jealousy.
I've been asexual ever since, could never imagine using that tumor between my legs or even just show it to others, sure I had a gf and I had sex cause how can I know without trying, and it was fucking disgusting.
I've been doing girly stuff since my childhood and almost all my friends back then asked my mom at some point if I'm a fag or what, so that'd be who I am otherwise; an asexual "fag" who keeps alienating people and isn't actually interested in neither guys nor girls and has always suffered from not matching typical gender roles cause it caused me a lot of loneliness when I could just not talk to people without looking like the fag I am not and end up ridiculed.
Look at all the betas writing here, why should I choose this alternative over something that in fact feels more natural, even though it involves intrusive surgery? I don't believe I was pushed into being a tranny since, you know, it was me being me what would've pushed me there in the first place.
inb4 fag in denial.
I find gay sex disgusting, and seeing men kiss makes me feel ill.