>>23852170Long walls of texts incoming.
I don't know, sadly.
I've tried various things and although they did have some effect, it's too easy to distract oneself with more instant gratification stuff like games and watching series/films/etc to stick with it for me.
Using apathy as a mechanism to get rid of the anger and sadness to finally allow me to get back on my feet was a good idea back then, but I think it's also what's keeping me from being able to push past this relatively mediocre state. I now mostly have selective apathy and am very able to enjoy the little things in life, but for instance my self-discipline is crap. Something I'd like to one day force myself to improve, but I keep postponing it as it's easier to not push myself.
After you've manage to somehow obtain self discipline (if you don't have it yet), consider trying one of the following approaches.
>Go for a physical activityBe it a martial arts or even something like cycling/running or hitting the gym etc. Using that rage and the adrenaline it released when cycling, made cycling quite enjoyable to me in the past. Martial arts might work as well, but you will have to learn how to harness the rage and not let it flow freely so to speak. It's not really accepted to beat your fellow martial arts practitioners to pulp in a blind rage when the aim was a simple throw for example.
>consider practicing an art-formIt may seem faggy, but using art to express your emotions could help well, and is far from uncommon. Be it sadness, rage, or in the future positive emotions. Be it through painting, playing a musical instrument, or a different craft/skill. You don't even have to be proficient at it already, consider learning a new skill/craft as an outlet if you don't have one/some yet.
That's all I can think of right now as things you can do to try and be more active in life, directly related to those rage and sadness emotions.
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