>tfw she gave me that line about wanting to stay single for the while when i asked her out
>tfw 2 weeks later she starts gym, meets this, and starts screwing
>tfw she uses me, messages me whenever she needs help with something, etc
>tfw aside from the above, she ignores me
>tfw she gets full of herself having a muscular boyfriend, starts calling other guys the "non-muscles"
>tfw she constantly "jokes" about disciplining me
>tfw she complained about him and i hinted she should break up, and she told me to fuck off
>tfw he trains her in gym hard and she gained 10 pounds of muscle
>tfw about 3 months after she starts looking like below
>tfw she messages just to say she's at his place, and then goes dark
>tfw it turned me on knowing this beefy guy was pounding her
>tfw i fap thinking about them fucking

ever get turned on by a situation like this, seeing a girl you're into or know becoming more sexual? when she told me to fuck off that time, I didn't get angry, I got this nervous rush and felt rightly put in place. felt more right ending up voyeuristic instead of with someone like her. think she looks noticeably changed?