>>23852375I don't like people having expectations. I find it extremely burdensome to have to maintain the image someone has for me.
The other day, a random man picked me up when he saw me at the bus stop and gave me a ride. I was greatful, but also having to properly react and express gratitude stresses me out.
Then at work, this girl was getting friendly with me. It was nice to make a friend, but she kept laughing at my jokes so I felt nervous that now she would expect me to be funny all the time, and she would keep talking to me which made me stressed as fuck, having to maintain conversation and my looks and facial expressions.
Or today on the bus, this girl sits next to me and says "hi boyfriend!" And I remembered her from a few weeks ago where she was hitting on me when I got on the bus. She said I was cool and started calling me boyfriend. When I saw her again I was filled with dismay. I couldn't react fast enough and she asked me what's wrong and looked all concerned. She asked if I remembered her and I acted like I didn't. Then she said "ummm I have to sit with my friend", and got up and moved away.
I felt bad but also good because I doubt she'll ever approach me again.
I don't know why, but expectations stress me the fuck out. I hate even the most superficial friendships for this reason.