Im a 30 year old NEET robot and I've given up on trying to make things better, or even thinking about it.

I am now focused on making things worse and trying to fuck my shit up completely.

For the past year, I started sleeping in the morning and waking up at night. No light enters the house and the little that it does I dont see since I am asleep.

This has made all my days literally the same, since the only inter-changeable thing in my environment was the light of the morning which gives a very real sense of time passing by. I dont have family or friends, I dont have acquaintances or even a phone. Now I sleep right before the sun comes up and I wake up at 7-8 at night which makes everything look like the continuation of the previous night. I have been living the same night for a year, like im trapped in groundhog day except its exclusively night time. Im more paranoid, bitter, bipolar, depressed and suicidal than ever.

My next step is somehow losing any sense of current events or anything really that has to do with the outside world. I think I have to quit 4chan to achieve this which will be very hard but I really wanna see where this thing is gonna take me.

Wish me luck bros