Well, I don't really browse much here, and this probably will be deleted for being some sort of "dear diary" post, and most likely will be shat on.

But sometimes, I feel like...such a mistake. I honestly wish I were more into STEM, I've only been exposed to things lower than pre-calc because I just avoided it and I was mediocre at math besides processing basic ASMD fast. I honestly wasn't doing well in most of my classes regarding Science- or just STEM in general.

Instead, my passion was into the fine arts and interest in helping people by becoming a Social Worker one day. I guess I'm just "average" in art, not truly enough to actually make a living off of it, same with literature. I know Social Workers don't make a lot, but I've always had a thing for helping people get back on their feet, and I've always had people mention that I help create a caring environment without me provoking it.

But still, a lot STEM students around really make me feel like shit for not going into Engineering or Computer Science- or not them, but I myself. I, sort of feel unnecessary to the world. I mean, I should rely on what I feel than what others' feel for the most part- but I still let it get to me how I'm, I don't know, "below" them in some way. That I went into a community college and going to some basic university than some Ivy League or some prestigious institution, that I came from a working class, with low-medium income.

I...wish I were more knowledgeable in STEM. But every time I try to get into it, I just don't know. I just have an IQ of 102, so it probably makes sense why I'm so limited in intelligence.