>>22703976I've lurked the sexy audio threads before, sometimes helps a little but I find I have to focus really hard to try to feel anything and most of the time end up tuning it out.
When I was with that guy 3 years ago I think I had a moment when I was closest I had ever gotten to an orgasm the first time he touched me. But that was also the first time anyone had ever touched me, I think what I was feeling was just the excitement of the first time. Thats kind of what sparked my futile hope that sex would cure me, because I can't seem to do shit by myself but as soon as he was doing it it was suddenly more exciting. It was his first time doing anything like that too so its not like he even knew what he was doing.
If I had to describe my experiences trying to get off, its like really rapid for starters the whole process just happens in like a minute. The first 40 seconds are me trying to get anything going, feel something that is somewhat pleasurable. Then for like 3 seconds I get hit with a "ok, this is alright" feeling very suddenly, no buildup or anything just hits me like a brick, then for half a second its like I'm almost there its gonna happen any moment, and then nothing. Dies as quickly as it came with no satisfying end. Back to square one after a couple minute cool down period.
I also can't touch my clit directly. I wouldn't say its painful, but uncomfortable. Don't know why. Penetrations kind of the same. Not painful, but kind of feels like when you touch a texture you don't like and get that "elug" feeling
