>>43364198The world isn't a safe place. Whatever illusions you ever had about your personal safety in public or anywhere else will be shattered forever. Safety is an illusion, the human body is incredibly frail. I will never go anywhere unarmed without a firearm if I can help it, I am well aware of the minuscule need I don't care. A loaded pistol is my security blanket. I abide by the law mostly but not by artificial edicts. I carried every day at my college in spite of their silly rules. At my civilian employer as well risking termination if caught. I was a police officer for 2 years shortly after returning. I had to quit. I couldn't turn off "beast mode".
Violence actions happens very quickly you must aggressively react to it with immediate and aggressive intensity. When bad shit goes down the majority of people stand around with their dick in the dirt unable to process wtf to do. OODA loop is real. I am usually moving when others are still processing be it a car wreck, fire alarm, unexpected loud explosive noise (scare the shit out of me, it's frankly embarrassing).
I Wasn't a 18 year old draftee. I joined the Marines in 1998 and was a 25 year old Squad leader in Iraq.
I have trouble with personal relationships including the one with my wife. I can't stand fucking complaining. Every day above ground is a gift. Most civilians are soft sniveling bitches that come from a land of plenty. They have never suffered lived rough or made others suffer pain and death. But I resent and almost covet thier naivety.
I don't want to be pitied no one tricked me into joining the Marines. I knew damn well what a grunts job was. Before 9/11 I use to have "pray for war" written on my helmet because I though it was cool, that I was a hard dog. I was a fucking idiot.
I abhor "horror" entertainment violence it is disgusting, made for people that haven't pulled a human ear off a chain link fence from a VBIED. People who say they want to do violent things.
