>>16886519The supernatural result, which is what I presume would be of greater merit to the conversation, stems from a past riddled with horrors, growing up I was a hardcore Christfag, in a very religious household, and suffered from visions of demons, or other apparently evil entities. These monsters plagued me throughout my youth, and the name of Jesus did nothing to sate the terrors, they laughed at my prayers. (I have many stories of horrible visitations, which I could go into detail with further if one would care to know.) At any rate, for the good part of two years this ceased, and I wondered if perhaps I was mentally unstable, and delved into psychology, eventually finding my way to Satanism. During a Black Mass I preformed in April of this year, while reading the Conjuration of Destruction and saw these beasts once more, but this time was much diffrent, because I was not afraid, and they feared me. It was a deeply empowering experince, to see the very things that domineered my youth coware as I had never experienced before.
Excuse the length, I feel like occult subjects are often too vague on both the practitioner and the meaning behind it all
>Tldr; saw bad shit, made bad shit my bitch 
