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Because all my life I've been unhappy with my choices and my situation while simultaneously too afraid to make any changes on my own. Instead, I have put all my energy into a fantasy in which everything changes in some huge way all at once (sometimes via demonic energy or whatever and sometimes via something more mundane). When it happens I would hopefully fulfill a potential hidden even to myself.
I invest time better spent changing myself into these fantasies with out realizing that my issue isn't that I'm dissatisfied with who/where I am right now; it's that I will always be dissatisfied with my "current" self, which would become glaringly obvious once I got used to my new life in whatever fantasy scenario I created.
