Does my family have a curse /x/? I've had a lot of relatives kill themselves, including my brother. Almost all of my immediate family has attempted suicide at one point. I fall into incredibly bad depression spells sometimes. But it doesn't even feel like a mental illness. It feels like there is an actual entity looming over me. I feel an overwhelming sense of dread and doom. It's almost as if I'm just a shell of myself. Can anybody relate?