>>16897711This is where I began to freak out. I recalled every piece of fiction I had ever consumed that involved time loops and I started panicking. I wondered if I was totally fucked. Once was cool, twice was spooky, but three times and I seriously thought I might be stuck in a fucking dreamloop forever. Honestly the details after this point start to escape me, but I remember sinking to the bathroom floor with my head in my hands and howling like a psycho. Like I was really panicking bad.
Then I woke up again, only this time it was REALLY for real. I turned on the light and... honestly, I don't remember if it came on or not. Maybe I was so determined to accept yet another loop as reality that I ignored the result of me turning on the lamp. Maybe I wasn't even lucid at this point anymore. I don't remember what happened in the bathroom either, maybe I didn't even try it. I went downstairs. My dad was home even though I had heard him leave for work earlier, a strange thing but I ignored it. "I must just be wrong about that." I thought. I told my mom about the strange dreams while she dressed the chihuahua in birthday ribbons.
Then I woke up again. I was kind of numb now, no longer panicking. I just flung the sheets off and turned on my lamp, and this time that goddamned light finally came on.
I think there was something in Inception about a "constant" that was the same in every dream that you could use to see if it was a dream or not, which I guess was the lights not turning on, but don't quote me on that.
Anyway, fuck lucid dreaming.
