>raised Catholic but open-minded
>parents taught me about multiple religious beliefs and encouraged me to find my own
>i became interested in Hinduism, particularly Raja (Ashtanga) Yoga
>mastered the half-lotus and began a quest toward samadhi
>also began to worship Shiva as Lord of Yoga
>went through a series of spiritual breakthroughs that made my life in many ways better but in many ways worse
>culminated in a peak experience that lasted over three years
>thought God was communicating directly to my soul
>felt the shivers of kundalini
>saw auras and chakras
>eventually though I came across Phillip K. Dick and gnosticism
>came to the conclusion that the material world is a fleshy prison that keeps us away from the Monad (Brahman)
>ultimately feel like my spiritual quest leads to suicide

What's wrong with me, /x/? I don't want to pursue a hedonistic life of pleasure. I just want for the Logos to correct the glitches in this matrix of suffering. Curse the demiurge.