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>diagnosed schizoaffective in October 2011
>what was interesting was not so much the way my behavior that changed as much as people around me
>i became aware of invisible forces manipulating the masses around me
>and these invisible forces became aware of me
>i was sent strange and prophetic dreams
>sleep was also difficult and fraught with night terrors
>electronics were disrupted in my presence
>people told me terrible things regularly
>people began conspiring against me
>even online, people would try and lie and confuse me
>perhaps their intention was merely to troll but i took all these comments to heart
>i became afraid that people wanted to kill me
>i was stopped by cops and put in jail because of my odd dress and behavior
>shortly after i was moved to a psych ward
>despite all the horribleness this was all a very spiritual experience and formative of my current views
>unfortunately, the medicine they gave me put me in a zombie-like state and caused me to forget all the clarity i achieved
>now four years later i can start to recall the exquisite beauty of those moments
>want to get off meds but not sure how to overcome my delusions (grandeur, paranoia, persecution, messiah, martyr)
Is meditation the solution? How do unmedicated schizos deal with their delusions?
>what was interesting was not so much the way my behavior that changed as much as people around me
>i became aware of invisible forces manipulating the masses around me
>and these invisible forces became aware of me
>i was sent strange and prophetic dreams
>sleep was also difficult and fraught with night terrors
>electronics were disrupted in my presence
>people told me terrible things regularly
>people began conspiring against me
>even online, people would try and lie and confuse me
>perhaps their intention was merely to troll but i took all these comments to heart
>i became afraid that people wanted to kill me
>i was stopped by cops and put in jail because of my odd dress and behavior
>shortly after i was moved to a psych ward
>despite all the horribleness this was all a very spiritual experience and formative of my current views
>unfortunately, the medicine they gave me put me in a zombie-like state and caused me to forget all the clarity i achieved
>now four years later i can start to recall the exquisite beauty of those moments
>want to get off meds but not sure how to overcome my delusions (grandeur, paranoia, persecution, messiah, martyr)
Is meditation the solution? How do unmedicated schizos deal with their delusions?
